What is FEAR ?

                                 " It's kind of fun to do the impossible " - Walt Disney

There was a tiny fear in my heart as i walked into my college on my first day. Remembered being caught by a group of  seniors and their general Q&A round. The trick was, it had to be complete Hindi conversation at which I, my friends, am weak :)  However , by the end of the round i actually realized I used words like चित्रकला - पिताश्री - विद्यालय - भ्रमण - अतिउत्तम - कार्य - सफलता and few more. As I turned to leave  after bowing down to the group of "Respected Sir & Madame", I realized there was a little smile on my face and not a FEAR. Com-on, I admit that this was probably the first time in my life I have used these words.


Moving on, college was pretty good. Fear of 'coding' in simple HTML was one thing i could not get rid off. I fell in doubt if I had chosen a wrong subject, however things turned bright when 3D was introduced. The more i came to know about its power the more i fell in love. I told myself that I would learn Character Animation which I did and got my job as an animator too. I escaped the confusing 'codings' , i thought I escaped the Fear. Life was at its best when I started getting freelancing projects as well to do character animation.

Then there was a time when I saw myself working in BPO doing little animation along the same side.I guess this is why they say -" Life's a roller-coaster". Not that I had any bad experience but from time to time I feared if I would be able to get back what I would love to do, my subject, animation. I got a huge opportunity to come back into my field from a relative of mine but for some reason I didn't go for it. Was that Laziness ??  I think I felt Afraid !!
                    
                    " Thinking will not overcome fear but action will." -W. Clement Stone


Getting some hard talk from my family and after lot of cursing to myself, I decided to get a hold of myself. I started creating another demo-reel and fortunately enough I got myself a freelancing project from a company.Started working on it and before even I knew I got a call to work for this company on a full- time basis. I wouldn't miss this. When asked about my profile, as to what exactly I would have to do, they said that they would like me to document their sites, visualize the web design and keep an eye on the development of every site.  (* Can u really escape FEAR ?? its coming back to me - Website Development which means  HTML, DotNet and crappy Languages which I will have to take care of ??? Man, whatever be it I cannot or shouldn't BacK Off now.. )
By the time my Sr.Manager finished explaining my job, I had already thought off the above all but decided to face  my fear.


3 months into the job and  IT IS FUN. I enjoy doing the graphics, writing docs. for the sites and learning/building websites on Dreamweaver. I got to realize that many things would be impossible in life until you are ready to face them. 


                                   "Do what you like to do, love what you get to do,
                                     you'll always get more than you expect in life."   - Me :)